Saturday, April 9, 2016

I Have Faith...

I'm learning trust on an entirely new level.  It's always easy to just give little bits to Christ and keep the parts you think you can control, attempting to bring yourself some peace...which always ends in chaos.  I almost decided to not attend my Discipleship Training School.  I was devastated, but was convinced that with my health issues, that I would never be able to do it.  I've been doubting my abilities a lot recently, letting my health issues limit what I think I'm capable of.  I've been keeping little bits of things to myself instead of surrendering them to Christ.  This DTS being one of those things...I figured if I could make it easier on myself and just let go, then I wouldn't have to fully lean on Christ to not only provide healing, but also the finances to get me to Texas and back.

Kayla, one of the staff members at the Wylie Campus talked with me and I truly believe that Christ spoke through her.  She not only spoke (or I guess typed) words of healing, and encouragement, but she also spoke truth.  The reminder she gave is one that I needed: The enemy will use my weakness (my health/finances) to keep me from where God is asking me to go.  By making me feel as though my health issues are bigger than my God, or my lack of finances are bigger than my God, the enemy has me defeated...but in Christ, who is bigger than finances, health issues, and self doubt, I am set free and can do the impossible through Him who gives me strength.

I am excited for my DTS in September. EXCITED.  I'm practicing leaning on God in and through these obstacles, giving Him room to work and show is great glory.  I'm still weary and worried that the money may not come, but as Kayla also pointed out...the Wylie team prayed over my application and consulted Christ and truly feel that this DTS is where God wants to send me.  They didn't make this decision to accept me on a whim, they prayed together and followed the Holy Spirits guiding.

I have faith...weary, worried, shaken faith...that Christ will provide in big ways for this opportunity.

With love,

Monday, January 11, 2016

I Got Accepted!!!

Guess what?

I've been accepted into the 5 month long Children At Risk Discipleship Training School with Youth With A Mission!! I will get the opportunity to spend three months in Wylie, TX studying topics like: Having Jesus' Heart for The Poor and Needy, as well as having daily prayer times, and devotionals.  I'm so excited to have this opportunity to learn, grow, and build relationships with other believers.  I'm looking forward to God growing me, and pushing me outside my comfort zone to minister to others.

After the first three months, which is called the "Lecture Phase", my team and I will set out on the 2 month long "Outreach Phase" which will take place in another country.  I wont know which country until the first weeks of schooling, but I'm excited to pray along my other team mates and choose the country that God lays on our hearts! 3 Months away from my family, in another state, learning, growing, and being stretched in ways I never thought possible, 2 months with my team (by that time they'll be like family) in another country, new cultures, experiencing the things that break God's heart, seeing hard things, and being exhausted beyond belief, will be a very trying and life changing experience.

I'm looking forward to expanding my relationship with Christ, and my knowledge of the God that I serve.  He has a plan and purpose for everything, and I am excited to see what He has in store for me and what lessons He longs to teach me through this program.

I would like to invite you to pray for me and my future team, that God would prepare our hearts for all that we will be taught during this 5 month long program.  Pray that He would mold us into individuals that have a likeness to Him.  Pray for fiances, as this schooling program will total out to $8000, and though I am working to provide some of that money, I know that my part time job wont bring in the amount I need.  I know, that if this is where God wants me He will provide the money necessary to get me to this school.  But I am only human and still have worries and doubts, so prayer for peace and assurance would be gratefully accepted as well!

If you would like to support me financially you can do so through the Youcaring located on the right hand side of the blog named "Alyssa's YWAM DTS".  I am grateful for any and every amount that is given!  God can take any gift and multiply it, as long as we're ready to trust that He can do the impossible!

Cost Break Down:

Lecture Phase: $3450
This will cover my room, and board, meals, and DTS program related transportation during the school.  (I have a $350 housing deposit due August 19th that will be deducted from this number.)

Outreach Phase: $4000
This will cover airfare and any other fees that need to be paid while in another country.

Other Costs: $550 
This will cover things such as washing and drying close, and other expenses while in TX.

The first half of my fees are due upon arrival on September 18th, 2016.  The fees for my airfare are due over Thanksgiving, and the last portion of my fees are due on December 16th. While I have time to raise the last half of my fees, my goal is to have everything raised and ready to go before  my school starts. Only because I worry about everything under the sun and don't want to be panicked/worried during the schooling that I my not raise the last half of my fees and I also want to be able to focus fully on the tasks in front of me, instead of worrying about the financial side of things.  Make sense?

I am so excited to see what God has in store for me on this journey!  I really hope that you all will stick around to see the ways that God works through me to spread His love to others and transforms my heart to look a little more like His.  

With love, 

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Gracious Gifts

I am in shock, once again.

My mind keeps racing through the times where we've cried thinking our adoption is over.  Thinking that we'd failed Nikolai, that he wouldn't come home, that the money would never come. Wondering why the fundraisers were never successful.

I'm reminded this evening of how big our God is and how seemingly insignificant my worries are.  I'm seeing now, the ways that He has planned this adoption and all of the working parts that are needed.  He had this planned before we committed to Nikolai, before I became his Angel Tree Warrior, before he was listed on Reece's Rainbow, before Nikolai was born, He had a plan and was bringing together every little piece.

This evening we were graced by a donation that left us speechless.  We have enough money for our Dossier, we have extra for the fees/costs that will come next.

There is a reason that He asks us to trust Him. This is just one of the many reasons. He knows what He's doing.