**Note: There are photos of Addison in this post. They may be hard for some to process. Just a warning.**
This month has been an extremely hard month.
It comes in at a close second to the month we lost Addison.
So much has gone on in life, and my heart is so worn out.
I feel as if I have been stretched and used in ways, like never before.
September is always a difficult month.
But it is also a happy one too.
Two years ago today we lost Addison Ruth.
She was still born, and beautiful.
The heart break that came with loosing her was horrendous.
Today we grieve and celebrate what would have been her 2nd birthday.
We miss this little girl, more than we could ever express.
It's hard and honestly I just wish Addison was here with us.
Because the pain is just too much.
Although if Addison hadn't been taken home to heaven...
We wouldn't have Oliver.
Oh what a precious gift Oliver is.
A gift straight from heaven for sure.
His birthday is in September too, and what a wonderful that is.
I don't think I will ever be able to thank God enough for Oliver.
But I still wish we could have had Oliver and Addison here with us.
She would have been 2 today...
She would have been walking, talking...
Having opinions on food, and tv shows.
She should be running around in pretty dresses and bows in her hair.
She should be here with her mom, and dad...
big brothers and big sisters....
She should be here.
But I guess God had different plans for our family.
Just like God had different plans for Kyle.
Kyle was a sweet little boy, who had no family.
He had no home, no toys, no bed, nothing to his name.
He was given up when he was a baby for reasons that we will never know.
He was born with Down syndrome, and spent his life in an orphanage.
He was transferred to an adult mental institution at the age of 5.
Where he sat and waited to be chosen.
He was chosen by a wonderful woman, but sadly Putin passed a law.
A law that would ban Americans from adopting R*ssian orphans.
Putin decided not only Kyle's fate, but all the orphans in R*ssia.
Kyle and all the other children have no more hope.
They no longer have a second chance at life.
They have been hidden away from the world, because no one sees their potential.
The ban has been in place for about 10 months now.
The longer the ban is there, kids start to die.
About a month ago we got an updated photo of Kyle.
When I heard this news I got excited because I wanted to know how my boy was doing.
I anxiously opened the message with his photo, I didn't find what I had hoped.
I didn't find a sweet picture of Kyle, that told me he was doing okay.
I found a sad, and terribly heart breaking picture, that said Kyle needed out.
Yes...That is the same little boy.
Heart breaking.
Kyle was slowly wasting away because he wasn't viewed as valuable.
No one cared about Kyle, no one took the time to think about his future.
Because of the ignorance in this world....
On September 25th, 2013 we got the news that Kyle had passed away.
He was no longer in pain here on earth, but is now dancing in heaven pain free.
No it's not a "happy ending", yes Kyle is pain free and in the arms of Jesus.
But we failed, we failed as the body of Christ, and just humans in general.
We failed.
This life passed away so quietly, and went un-noticed for so long.
Kyle was listed on a very big photo listing for the majority of his life.
But yet he died alone.
Please tell me why we ignored him? Why didn't we fight for this life?
Why didn't we care enough to do something?
WHY?
This should never happen! But the reality is, that it does....
Every day another kid dies.
But people continue to ignore these lives.
They don't do anything.
You don't have to adopt to make a difference.
Pray. Share. Donate. Advocate.
There are endless things that we can do to stop this!
You could help fund a family who is adopting:
-The Tanquary Family is adopting Kaydee-
They need $4800 to be fully funded.
-The Williams Family Adopting Berkley-
They need $5500 to be fully funded.
Oh how about helping and Angel Tree warrior raise $1000 for their Angel Tree child!
The bigger fund that a child has, the more likely they are to be adopted!
You could donate to a child's fund!
-Lark-
-Mick-
-Hale-
I beg of you to just get up and do something!
We cannot continue to let this happen!
These lives are precious, and they have value.
They have potential and they are children!
So pelase, oh please, oh please!
Get up. and GO. Find a child or a family, or an organization!
Do something!
For these kids....